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i just looked at some old journal entries.
i'm different yet still the same.
i am now 23 years old.
that pic you're looking at is so old.
myspace is like crack.
i still love blogging.
i don't blog as much but i try.
i have no job at the moment
i am going into the thrid year of my apprenticeship.
life is good.
i love all your girlfriends.
i can't wait to see what vegas new years is like.
i am no longer a virgin.
hahahhahahah
that was kinda dumb.
i guess im just rambling.
twigs break dreams die
you are meant to fly
sleep is your enemy
pain shows your alive
no one reads this anymore
i dont really care
my life is fun but i have no gun
what does that mean?
no clue
gee.
im done.
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[25 Jun 2005|02:32am] |
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i have grown tired of this username. got me a new one and its enders_will. well add me if you want. i wish i could make my new lj look just like this one. too bad tiff did it for me a while ago and i doubt she will again. one!
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| uhhh.....the book thats me i guess |
[15 Jun 2005|05:04pm] |
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You're Love in the Time of Cholera!
by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Like Odysseus in a work of Homer, you demonstrate undying loyalty by
sleeping with as many people as you possibly can. But in your heart you never give
consent! This creates a strange quandary of what love really means to you. On the
one hand, you've loved the same person your whole life, but on the other, your actions
barely speak to this fact. Whatever you do, stick to bottled water. The other stuff
could get you killed.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
to me this seems not like me at all. but then again internet quizzes never lie!!!
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[07 Jun 2005|01:30pm] |
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man im tired as hell. at the library right now. i didn't drive tiff to work like i was supposed to. i was along for the ride all passed out and shit. was just chillin in tiff's work's parking structure reading that dmx book. i should have been sleeping. i was chillin there because i was supposed to get tiff at during her lunch break and i didn't want to drive all the way back and forth. mostly thats just me being lazy. around like 11:00 i started getting sleepy and i thought i catch some z's while waiting. tiff calls me at like 11:30 and tells me to get chinese at like 11:45. i check the time and i was like i can close my eyes for fifteen minutes then i'll go. tiff wakes me up at like 12:30. i was thinking oops. lol. anyway we just walked to the wendy's right below us. i didn't really want anything there so i just watched her eat. i was feeling kind of sick so i just laid my head on the table. tiff was done so i bounced and i am now am chillin at the library to kill time before i gots to be at work. belt ceremony was last night and i gonna write about it last night but i was tired and sad so i didn't feel like it. but anyway im a yellow belt now. i thought for sure i was just getting a black stripe. darien is a green belt along with charity, sara and carolina. oh yeah tiff told me that sara spells her name with a c. like cara or something. i thought that was funny. those hudson's with their names that start with c. jr, tiff, niki, rae, ceth, christian are yellow belts with black stripes. steve, tim and me are yellow belts. alex got a white belt with a black stripe but grandmaster caught him playing with his toes while he was talking and he took it away. after the belt ceremony we had darien's b-day party at the gym. we all ate and stuff. i was kinda just chillin in the corner reading. carolina was said "for some reason mike i think you like to read." hmmm...really? i wonder gave her that impression? lol. well i think my really hungary now. late.
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[07 Jun 2005|02:51am] |
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yeah i fucking know i get started on these entries late and finish even later. im dumb like that. im supposed to drive tiff to work tomorrow or umm...today. actually tiff will do the driving cause im looking at little to no sleep right now. damn jr for recommending that dmx autobiography. i was reading it for the past few hours and then deciding since im up still mightr as well update. some shit went done since i last updated. tavon's mom marie killed herself thusday night. turns out she had breast cancer and didn't want to deal with the pain. she over dosed herself on morphine. found out the same night when i was chillin at the taco shop. tavon lives in michigan so his older sis who lives down the street from the taco shop broke the news to rene who then in turn broke the news to me. at first i didn't even feel anything cause it's been a long time since i seen her. then all the memories i've had at tavon's pad and that one time she took me and tavon to the desert. she was one of the coolest mom's i knew. she rolled the first joint tavon and me ever smoked. and the thing i remember the most was that she always had a smile on her face. although i never knew her last name she was one of the coolest ppl i have ever met. the homie's and me went over to akilah's house to help comfort her in her time of need. this is when it hit me hard. at first i was just quiet and was just staring off into to space trying to comprehend. i couldn't cry at first. it just didn't seem real. but at kilah's place i just would all of a sudden start crying a little then stop. i get really emotional at times and then all of a sudden just don't feel anything for a while. i don't know how to explain it. by this time we got some beer and leo and me just got fucking wasted. i know thats a cope out but when we left kilah's and were kicking it at rene's is when i finally broke down was like crying for at least five minutes going on about how marie was gone. when i talked to tavon on the phone i couldn't really think of anything to say except im sorry for his loss and i can't imagine what he is going through right now. when i lost my uncle roger years ago i felt empty. my dad wasn't around much when i was a kid so roger having all girl's filled in as best he could. i love him with all my heart and more. he was like a father in a sense. although marie wasn't blood she was still part of my life growing up in el cajon.
roger-
filling in shadows of what once was
but like shadows taken away too quickly
with a smile that could outshine the sun on the brightest day
strong as a bear
with a heart bigger than life
always with love mikey
R.I.P Roger Tsosie
marie-
always there to make me smile
never shy to give me a place for the night or feed me with what little she had
it didn't matter if it was just stove-rosted quesadillas and microwave burritos
you open-minded and caring
although i didn't agree to what you did to tavon during times
i know you still loved him and he you
your weekend son squanto
R.I.P.
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| monday and tuesday happenings |
[01 Jun 2005|01:57am] |
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work yesterday and today both fucking sucked. monday i only worked an hour and a half. today i didn't even work. it was aight tonight though. mostly cause k dawg was making me some drinks while i chilled in the back reading. some star wars book. tales from the empire i think. the first drink he made was just a washington apple. not a shot though. drink size. was really good. i also had some other stuff but that drink was the best. a little sour but i kinda like sour stuff. i drank that with my chicken enchiladas with green sauce on it. plus beans. i think i could have actually clocked on and worked but i got lazy after my first drink. even if i did i would not have made much in tips. i found out today that i missed a poker game. could have gone if i didn't fucking lock the keys in the truck at tiff's place. that shit was fucking weak ass shit. i seriously had this flimsy ass wire hanger trying to unlock my door. i unlocked my old caddie like that but i couldn't pull it off on the truck. tiff and me were looking all hood in her predominately white neighborhood. thank my fucking lucky stars i know j. he came and saved the day. apparentely he got his hands on a lock out kit and hooked it up. i remember telling tiff's handy-man of the property that my friend had a lock-out kit and hooked it up. he was like is he a locksmith or a theif? i was thinkin no comment or next question please but i just made some shit up. eventually i got hungry and tiff was trying to play it off like she wasn't. we got some sub-way and some dvd's from blockbuster. in blockbuster i messin with tiff the whole time cause the food was in the truck still getting cold. seriously tiff takes fucking forever picking out some shit. anyway i got her to get punisher. she got three other movies but i forgot what they are called. anyway me and tiff are at her pad watching punisher and there is a this scene which reminds me why i will never get any peircings. ever. that scene and that one in airheads where chris farley rips off that dude's nipple rings. mother fucking ouch!!! anyway i think punisher was pretty cool. tiff was predicting like all the scenes but it was that bad. lots of splosions and stuff. im not really as dumb as that sentence makes me sound. its more like sarcasm. but you can't hear the sarcastic tone of my voice cause im typing. maybe if you try real hard and use the force you might be able to tell that the keyboard is making sarcastic typing noises. lol. sorry just up later than i should be considering im supposed to do stuff tommorow. now on to useless reading of fanfiction.net. peace.
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| ong bak |
[30 May 2005|03:53am] |
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great movie. about some guy named ting from a holy village. long story short. bad guys chop off the village's holy statue head. ting vows to find it. goes to big city to find it. ting is a muay thai fighter. beats ppl up. doesn't kill anybody which i thought was cool. actually i think he killed one guy at the end. he never used a gun which is hella honorable. this dude tony jaa aka ting can kick some serious ass. the end was real sad. almost made me cry. i highly recommend this movie. well if you don't mind reading sub-titles. the end.
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dude mutha fucking ong bak is the shit. leo let me borrow that shit. work pretty much sucked tonight. i would have made 61 but that other dude randy was working. so i ahd to split it with him. fuck man i hate new coworkers somtimes. most of them are cool but i have to train them and then i have to work with thwm for a while till they get a hang of it. that shit cuts into my cash flow. anyway fuck that shit. man im hungry again. late.
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[29 May 2005|02:36pm] |
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ummmm...not much to write about so i'll just ramble on incoherently. leo's carne asada tacos are bomb diggity. period. i don't care what taco shop you go to. leo's by far the best one. actually the taco shop isn't called leo's. its like juanberto's or something. the reason i call leo's taco shop is that where the homie leo works. por fa-whore still blows. like a big one. all the chill ppl are leaving and getting replaced with ppl who get on my nerves. like both the randy's. the chick one trains with grandmaster. but she gets hella annoying. like i don't even do anything to her. i ask her a simple question and she looks at me like she wants to fuckin kill me or some shit like that. i asked her one day and she gave me a dirty ass look and walked away. i didn't say anything to her cause i don't need anymore bitchy-ness. dizzy ho!! anyway the dude randy is just plain stupid. he makes stupid remarks that are supposed to be funny they are not. mostly he is just some dumb fool. oh yeah junior acts like a little kid still. motherfucker your 18. grow the fuck up. shit his little brother gerado is more mature. mandy was the only chill server left but now she just bartends during the day and i don't get to see her no mores. ty's high ass don't even work at por fa-whore no more. at least i don't have to say "fuck you ty you know i quit yet everyday you work you flaunt a blunt in my face." i think brendan fell off the wagon. last night brodie said something bout brendan smoking too much. and he definately doesn't smoke anything but the green. he was passed the fuck out last night so i didn't get a chance to ask him. for some reason brodie was told me that shit all quiet like so maybe brendan waqnts to be a closet smoker or something. or maybe he thinks walmart has bugs listening in on their worker's conversations. i saw this funny walmart parody in this hustler mag. it had this big ad with a devil dude in those blue vest. at the top is says "walmart, always low wages, always." i showed that shit to brendan and hw thought it was funny. actually come to think of it i think i already wrote about that shit. fuck it anyways im still fucking bored. ummm...lets see anything other nonsense come to mind. guess not peace ppl. ps jr is trying to turn me into his white tee bitch. not in the way that sentence makes it sound. he wants me to get him some white tee's from t-shirt mart. maybe i will submit and be a gopher.
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[29 May 2005|03:40am] |
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my yahoo messenger status message pretty much says it all. awake and bored as hell. i should add fucking hungry. im heating up the pizza ceddell hooked it up with. plus i got me the carne asada tacos leo made me. work was pretty slow. made some tips that are all gone now. spent mostly on food. i eat like there is no tommorow. went to broder's for some tea and stuff. read a couple of wolverine comics. one was called "coyote passing" and the other was "the end" or something. i bought my first cd in at least a year. gorrilaz demon days. i like it. i used to have their last cd but i lost it somewhere. for some reason the po po were chillin outside border's. i think they was watching the truck. cause right after i went to the truck they was eyeing me. at least i think they were. anyway i got in and started to drive off when the cop car turned on its lights and i thought they was going to pull me over for something. i was thinkin fuck man what's this shit. but they went the other way behind the mall. i was like cool. fuck, fuck the police!! i just cruised on over to the taco shop to chill with leo. chillaxed with him for a bit. his little sis was reading some book called i woke up and i was married. had to take a peek. it was like a romance novel. i asked her why she was reading it. something bout a book report and she gets an a for anything over 300 pages. i was flippin through it and found a sexual part of the book. started reading it out loud. was pretty funny. then rene calls and says he ordered some wings from domi-ho. picked it up for and ceddell told me that she had some extra pizza. free pizza is always pimp shit. brodie and brendan were pretty much passed out. they were killing a 18-pack before i got there. kicked it with them for a while and then bounced. got home like a hour and a half ago. due to my bored-ness i am reading fan-fiction. nicole is so going to make fun of me for reading this stuff. cause i used to pester her about it. i should just write hippocrate on my forehead. well back to being bored. laterz.
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bored as usual. just chillin and heating up some food. i think im going to play some chess. haven't played in a while. lilo and stitch is funny. tiff and mason are watching it. well i am kind of too. well not much to write. im almost finished with that nirvana book. its good. real good. i go to work later. my car might be running soon but its still a bucket. at least it will run. fuck it im done.
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[26 May 2005|11:51am] |
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just woke up. late as usual. john is going to be happy. i told him i can't work monday cause of tkd. grandmaster told us last night that he has some ceremonies to attend so he can't make it. hes still in the military so memorial day must be a big thing. i got to be at work at like 5:30. my new game kotor is okay. i haven't played it much. i'm reading that book about nirvana called come as you are. i like it. interesting stuff. its the first book i've read on any kind of band or music. jr has been trying to get me to read his book e.a.r.l. its about dmx. i'd rather read something else instead. steve miller lent me three books after tae kwon do last night. one is about some ndn chief from the east coast. one is called god is red. and the last one is about the medicine man black elk. its not black elk speaks. its called something else. im hungry now so im bout to eat me some eggs. late.
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[25 May 2005|12:15pm] |
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just woke up. still a little tired but it is okay. watched ocean's 12 and snow walker. ocean's 12 was okay to good. snow walker is about this 32 year old ex-bomber pilot who has to pick up a sick inuit girl in alaska. of course they crash. i liked this one better than ocean's 12. the ending is real sad. last night before i put in the second movie i cruised on over to casino to try their new food they have in the gas station. got me some fried chicken and hot wings. hot wings were better than the fried chicken. well not much else to talk bout so laterz.
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[25 May 2005|12:05am] |
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the flippin suns lost it tonight. i know i don't really care about any kind of professional sports but this is the only team i give a fuck about. i remember watching the suns play the bulls back in the day. i don't give a shit what sport's center said after the game. im not giving up on them. its 2-0 spurs right now...but i see a light at the end of a long, long tunnel. tiff and me just named poe's kitten's. archimedes, socrates, artemus and ender. pimp shit. i call ppl having topics i was going to bring up but when i start talking my mind goes blank. i think i ended up sounding dumb or something. oh well. work was aight tonight. made some cash. it didn't get busy but it wasn't super dead either. k dawg was bartending tonight. he always makes less boring because of all the funny commentary he has. i thought doug found a new bar to chill at cause he's been mia for like a few months. it seems he was at kansas. fucking kansas man. he said one of his relatives gave him a book about chemical denpendence and ppl who live with and love them or something. doug said he thinks he relative gave him that because he was drinkin like a fish. he was reply was that he would drink less if all the beer out there wasn't watered down 3.2 stuff. apparently on weekdays you can only buy beer till 10pm. on weekends you can beer till midnight. on sunday you can't buy shit. in that county of kansas he was at they didn't sell anyt liquor. weird shit. anywho nothing else much happened today. oh yeah i finally got my the game i bought a while ago from rene's pad. kay done now. seems someone rented ocean's 12. been wanting to see that movie for a while ago. late.
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damn jr and his rap sometimes. i get tired of hearing it sometimes. its not even about the music we are listening to. i think since i used to pick on jr a lot when we were kids he wants to show me i can't do it anymore. i know i can't. he seriously would straight kick my ass. im still a little taller than him but he is way stronger and a better fighter. period. im not even going to talk bout endurance. i don't care about being stronger than him anymore. i love him like no ohter but sometimes we just get on each other's nerves. mostly its my fault. i can get irratating to ppl a times. i know why but for some reason i can't help it. man this shit is making me depressed. on to a different topic. last night i was kickin it with tiff at her pad. i was supposed to see my dad there but tiff the dork told me to bring food when i came cause they was watching a movie. i was like okay i'll get pizza for us. i get two large pizzas and some breadsticks. plus some soda. anyway io stopped by the taco shop to get some coke at the 7-11 and i saw the homies there. me and rene cruised down to his house so i could the video game i left there and monie's b-day present i left in his car. anyway i took way too long there and bounced to tiff's place. i get there and no dad. he got tired and left right before i got there. i walk in with the pizzas and junk and tiff is like we already ate. i was like your dumb why did you tell me to bring some food? silly tiff. she was putting in the darkness but i said i already seen that movie. i asked what else she rented and she rented the L Word dvd. i was thinking what's that? she told me it was bout lesbians in la. i was thinking hmmm hot chicks making out and stuff. sounds good to me. at first i wasn't really watching it. was just reading ender's game for the second time. okay bout to play some black arrow with jr. not angry no mores. then we gots to go tkd. peace.
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